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If I was
Ever a liar I could tell you
I’ve gone blind trying to see it all,
(Poor arrangements)
Holding cake
Falling through our hands
Is no place safe to put this down?
There must be something there
Below the smoke and the fog line
Blood in the way
I’ll be dead when you die
Too late to come home now
A drifting memory
You keep telling me a better way to get you through
I meant to mention everything
It’s been years since I knew blood in the way
I’ll be dead when it’s gone
One by one
Empty and needing more of the same
I could chalk it up to arrogance or influence
Jumping off
It’s hazy when I turn around like her
Finding the last pieces blown across (the light!)
Blood in the way
I’ll be dead when you die
Escaped to come home now
A drifting memory
You keep telling me a better way to get this through
I meant to mention everything
It’s been years since I knew blood in the way
Lately I’m uncomfortable
You knew something was wrong but carried on
It’s been years since I felt everything
I keep trying to save the truth
Blood in the way
I’ll be dead when you die
Too late to come home now
Adrift in memories
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2. |
Frogger
02:48
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I pulled over
Have we come to expect too much?
Good parts never stick around
I can’t see what I was
Collapsing onto porcelain
Like inevitable ends
You see our future through a torn crumpled paper bag
I’ll never replay
I’ll never replay
What takes me away
There was no wilderness left
There follow every fact
A life in public
I’m on my fourteenth one
Look at us here spending time on all this dumb shit
They didn’t see what they had
A picture on the hall
I wouldn’t know what your feeling meant
Even if I could push them all
There was no wilderness left
There follow every fact
New holes, aluminum cans
WHEN YOU GET BACK
I NEVER WANTED
ALL OF THE THINGS
I NEVER WANTED
WHEN YOU GET BACK
I’m not in a rush
I’m slowing down
Even if you could tell me how
I leaned into your hands
I knew you weren’t my home but couldn’t recall why
There was no wilderness left
There follow every fact
Passed out inside or beneath
Felt like we could be something
If I could just get to you
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3. |
On The Side of Angels
03:14
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You said you should be on your way
Laying around after pacing all day
However I respond would be wrong
Can we shift to passing right by?
Who said descent
So sad, heartsick
Narrow small streets near the fountain
On the side of angels
I was saying what’s in your head
That’s what I do best after all I guess, man
It’s not as dark as it seems
You always celebrate the endings
I tell myself the same things
Strung along by decisions made long ago
Alight at the station or atlas gates
Paused, wait crawling back through dumpster days
Nothing new but everything unknown
From static we never get by
It’s not as dark as it seems
You always celebrate the endings
I tell myself the same things
A future of hard work and resignation
I was so distracted
Haven’t shared my plans yet
Inexact in longing after what’s left, not yet
On the side of angels
I was saying what’s in your head that’s what
It’s not as dark as it seems
You always celebrate the endings
I tell myself the same things
A future of hard work and resignation
I was so distracted haven’t shared my plans yet
Inexact in longing after what’s left
Go back to the person I never was
Go back, see the person I never was
(All that’s haunted me
(All that’s haunting me)
Invisible nets, invisible nets
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4. |
Bad Moves
03:19
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What was once a bad move
Nothing left to say to you
I hope we live 100 years
So we’ve a 100 years to die
Somehow we were frozen in place
Fighting over what remained
Get me to get up
I only talk to myself when it’s too, too late
Once bored and now resurrected
To look at with detachment
(Like I won’t care what you said)
Life outside the golden frames
We laid down in the creek
Waiting for waves, I
Like the way it stains
We started once and ended twice
Before we held no roses, parting ways
What was once a bad move
The last thing that I’ll ever do
Our plans were only paper
Tossed into a hurricane
The lights on
Are you hidden somewhere?
I’ve been down every hallway, calling out
Strip mall psychics settled in mud
You go into your fantasy life without
Me bored and now resurrected
To look at with detachment
(I won’t care anymore)
Outside the golden lanes
We laid down in the creek
Waiting for waves, I was settled this way
We started once and ended twice
Neither of us can go
You said “I might be on my way to figuring out everything”
Except bad moves
Is it easy to put up with you?
A skeleton jumping outta my chest
Was it chasing after you?
Or were you running through me I guess
We could stay up all night in dreams
I walk outta this room, shit on my shoes
What was once a bad move
Nothing left to say to you
I hope we live 100 years
So we’ve a 100 years to die
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5. |
I Won't Say Goodbye
02:02
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You could tell a strange sense of my hastily thrown together eulogy
No spirit and decay
Like you could fall back into the gutter
And never come back
Left on their own, our walls bled
Well I don’t really say goodbye
I don’t really say goodbye
Trailing blood, a fortuneteller with no brains haunts forever
It took my life making bad decisions
I don’t really say goodbye
Then I won’t really say goodbye
The leaves between our hands
Like everything we had
We had to make it
Then I won’t really say goodbye
Then I won’t really say goodbye
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6. |
Same Kinda Love
02:20
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When the trouble started
You gave up your apartment
Hung on the stairs
I kicked over the ashtray
There’s no such thing as a
Sentimental blindfold
Like an hourglass reflecting a glare
And when we’re gone who will care you were here?
Never the same kinda love
Living along the strange formations
The same kinda love
Lowered from heights then faceless anymore
In the crush of an ever receding Past
The same kinda love
Living along the strange formations
Ashamed that you were
Even when I pretend to notice
The way we exist here
Inside some skin that’s not our own
I couldn’t crawl
Out of this space
Away from your apartment
Hung on the stairs
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7. |
To The Bottom of It
03:36
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When nothing was worth it all
In these lifeless days of contentment
Now I see that it wasn’t us at the bottom of it
To the bottom of it
I’ve been wrong twice before
To what degree should you ignore?
Face to face with the floor
Set the alarms to “ignore”
You at the bottom of it
I wanted to end up here
Without what happened
The way the wind steals the dead leaves
Everything I’ve lost trying to carry it all
Up in the fog is it what
We put in or get out
Or do we not belong
Here at the bottom of it?
The fake lights
Blink in your eyes and fill in
Colors with what I’d find
I’ve spent all my life at the bottom of it
At the bottom of it
The way the wind steals the dead leaves
Everything I’ve lost trying to carry it all
Up in the fog is it what
We put in or get out
Or do we not belong
Here at the bottom of it?
There’s no one else in this room that’s trying to leave it
We rode down wild hills
Where electric lines hummed
I wanted to end up here
Without what happened first
Everything I’ve lost trying to carry it all
Up in the fog is it what
We put in or get out
Or do we not belong
Nothing but our youth dissolving
Or being reborn as a wild pink bonfire
Here at the bottom of it
Here at the bottom of it
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8. |
Useless (Feel It 2)
03:02
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Too many times don’t wanna talk about it anyway
I’ll see it through
The same as you
Too many times
I see a movement up ahead think
You’ll find it too as high as you (were)
I’m supposed to leave
Who could make things up about
Our love on the ocean floor
So I shut up and you got bored
If we communicate at all it was by way of notes
Wet fingers and put out the flame
Anything longer would put me to sleep
Fumbling through
I’d like to think there are reasons, for
The blank page inside our brain
The page goes blank inside our brain
I thought that I was scared to stay
Into the darkness of dead pines
Who could make things up about
Our love on the ocean floor
Sliding further everyday
And it gets harder
Feeling my way through the dark
Put down my glasses and crashed right into
Growing more useless by the day
Then from away
I was not the reflection of the moon on the water when
The two of us were invincible
I’d like to hear
From you when I see an ambulance
New faces were a blur
And now the two of us are invisible
Who could make things up about
Our love on the ocean floor
So I shut up and you got bored
And it gets harder
Feeling my way through the dark
Put down my glasses and crashed right into
Growing more useless by the day
Oh I feel it 2
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9. |
Wait 4 Nothing
03:38
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If it’s easier for us
To switch it on and off
Can I leave it all to you?
I’ll always meet you here
As if I could get lost
I’m too worried to understand now
We get through some trouble
Then we get through some trouble
Then get through some trouble
Will we get through this trouble?
And I wanted to keep up with it all
But I had nowhere else to go
When it’s easy to dig up
A moat around our thoughts
If this isn’t a real and true love
Then I’m writing on my hands
Not sure of who I am
A loser here, ready and not
And I catch myself dying
I catch myself sliding
I catch myself siding
Everlasting failures I’ve tried
By wanting to keep up with
Or slow down
I haven’t learned to regret (yet)
And I don’t want you to
And I don’t want us to
Relive this life, I’m tired
And I feel that it’s true
I’ll still always love you
I think of only years left
And I don’t want you to
And I don’t want us to
Have you tell me once that you meant it
Now I see what might’ve been
It’s catching up to me, with
Headphones on
A marriage between what it means
Dying in my head
(Was it bad at the start?)
It’s all I have and I keep reminding myself
To remember what love is
What love is
Waiting for nothing
And I don’t want you to
And I don’t want us to
Relive this lie, I’m tired
And I feel that it’s true
I’ll still always love you
I think of only years left
Together, go through
Together, we’ll go through
Together, we’ll catch fires
If it’s easier for us
To switch it on and off
Now everything gets caught
Can I leave it all to you?
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10. |
Until The Sunlight
02:57
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Phased and growing up
Who would harmonize with us?
Then life wasted in work
I was driving off of cliffs
Or less permanent things
I’m seeing everything catching right up to me
(Through the windshield)
You were pretending
And what the fuck is broken now?
I’ve been waiting my turn
I’m faking myself out
From less permeant things
Do do do do
There’s nothing to say now
It’s cool to not come down (ever)
And we’ll get close
And they throw flowers on us
Flooded with new dreams
Is it good to get the hardest parts out of ...
Lost on the details
The car got taken away
We forgot to pay
Turned into what we became
Desire, catastrophe
I’m seeing everything catching right up to me
And we get close
Then they threw flowers on us
Flooded with new dreams
Is it good to give the hardest parts away?
Until the sunlight
Until we let go
Until the flood past
Until you get home
Loved me in fragments
I’m tired of talking
Barely could gesture
But we will laugh someday and how
And we’ll get close
And they throw flowers on us
Flooded with new dreams
Is it good to get the hardest parts out of the way?
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Sylvia
02:13
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I wasn’t myself tonight
Fucked, tangent dream drunk, dead to rights
They’ll only strap us down
If we give them a reason to, right?
You said that you saw something
Hidden in me when we met
And I think I did too but
I haven’t figured it all out yet
The truth is I don’t make plans
All I try do to is make sense
Of the long term world of senses
Excessive unchecked
WILL THIS BE WHAT WE REGRET?
I said that I saw something
Hidden in you when we met
And I think you did too but
You haven’t figured it out
Yet
A moonlit maze
Still struggling to make something worth
Staring at
A moonlit maze
Still struggling to waste something been running around all day
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Windows
03:22
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Two sides swarming in my head
Not just one I put off
I’ve stayed in love for years I thought
Why not your silhouette?
Long legs in firmament
They slowly destroy me, I said
Don’t blame them
It’s mine too
About the weight (that) you’re hauling
About the weight you’re hauling
Stretching out with harmonics
I remember the times
I made fun of myself to make us laugh at
Broken pieces
Can I keep them to myself?
I never meant to go silent
On you!
Two sides Swarming in my head
Not just one I put off
I’ve stayed in love for years
I thought to blame what?
It’s mine too
About the weight (that) you’re hauling
About the weight you’re hauling
Slow ways
You’ve taught me to get better
I still try
To look out broken windows
I might
Be sweeping up the glass
We’ll say
There’s no enemy of what it means to be loved
Slow ways
You’ve taught me to get better
You still try
To look through broken windows
I might
Be sweeping up the glass
When you say
'Too much fucking around'
You crack up
When I’m down
Slow ways
You’ve taught me to get better
Slow ways
You’ve taught me to get better
Slow ways
You’ve taught me to get better
Slow ways
You’ve taught me to get better
Too much fucking around
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