1. |
One Way Stop
03:28
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Who could save my life?
If only a second or two
Suntanned and spaced out
Why do we do this to ourselves, when we don’t really have to?
Fortune falls, exist before
And there will be life after (too)
We tell ourselves we had to get out of the way I’m still trying
When everything’s a one way stop
Did I fuck up?
You said you gotta go somewhere
If everything’s a one way stop
I wonder what the next person is telling us now
I’m sorry I don’t know how to put that glass in place
I asked you “How good would it feel not to feel that way no more?”
Then we’re stuck here watching all cars go by
Fortune falls, a life before
And there will be life after (too)
I tell myself I had to get out of the way I’m still fighting
When everything’s a one way stop
Did we get lost?
Unknowing only takes so much
If everything’s a one way stop
I wonder what the next people are telling us, oh
I’m not staying here now I’m too afraid to move
Skeletons wave in the trees
I’m not staying here now but I’m too afraid to leave
When everything’s a one way stop
Did I get lost?
I thought I’m trying to forget you
When everything’s a one way stop
Did I fuck up?
We’re not far from Hollywood now
If everything’s a one way stop
Covered in mud from stepping down into pathways
That wild animals have made, or was that us?
I wonder what they’ve been saying
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2. |
Tijuana to Here
02:15
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Then slipping out of dreams, it’s like I’m dodging leaves
I’m twenty feet from the ceiling
We’re alive we’re not dying with stains on everything
How many lifetimes do we waste or fake?
I thought I knew what I was doing
Ashing cigarettes in motel pools
The way you seem so sure lying on dirty sheets
As with any good weather there will be
Terror (and rain) on the other side
We faked it, damp hallways and handprints
In obscene sketches Tijuana left it
Your pink sunglasses melted on the dashboard
Once I know what you’re really feeling
I’ll rearrange mine
A slice of lemon in a heavy Navy glass
All this hassle just to make things seem sasy
Stumbling trailing blood
That I hope is my own
We faked it
Damp hallways and handprints
In obscene sketches: Tijuana to here
Your pink sunglasses melted on the dashboard
Once I know what you’re really feeling
But everybody has to pay sometimes
Every heart we break and don’t ask why
Tell you come on babe get up, come on please get up
There’s no reason to lie here
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3. |
That Often
02:39
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I don’t think of you that often anymore
Cause when I do I find I end up wanting something that’s all wrong
I know it’s awful what we burned in our path
Like cathedral wax I’m melting
Between even though it’s expected it hurts me
Romanticizing simple needs
Not to be left worth leaving
I’m sorry I’m still learning that it’s too much for me now
I don’t think you that often anymore
Cause when I do I get lost
’02 Halloween
All the best boys in love with each other and with you
You said “I knew we’d end up here”
Between, even though it’s expected it hurts me
Romanticizing simple needs
Not to be left worth leaving
I’m sorry I’m still learning that it’s too late for me now
There’s so many traps to fall down
Put your lips on mine and walk out
In my car I played ‘Chinatown’
Parked beside the hills, there’s no light
The best things are stolen then shared
We grew too tall, the wind knocked us down
I don’t miss being a genius
I just miss falling in love
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4. |
Wait Here
03:09
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I didn’t want you learn my secrets
But you asked so much that I had to say something
Then I watched you graduate in the wrong season
And I knew you thought I’m the better person
But I don’t know my way
Oh oh oh
I have lost the way
Oh Oh oh
And I forgot my place
What manner of junk lies beneath?
It came close, swore you heard footsteps
You wore my jacket in front of them
But I forgot the way
Oh oh oh
I forget the way
Oh Oh oh
And I forgot
I would stop this if I could
Now we’ll wait here til we understand
I’m gonna wait here til we understand
If neither of us stops!
Now I forgot the way
Oh oh oh
I have lost my way
Oh Oh oh
And I forgot: I don’t want to win, I don’t want to lose
But it’s all I have left
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5. |
Wont Shut Up
03:08
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Twenty years of the same things
I haven’t always held my share
I back away like you do too
Picking at endings
My head hits the ceiling if I get up too quickly here
Phantoms limbs in walls
I said I’m not like you
Now I swear you won’t shut up
Dancing ‘round with airplane arms
Back on the street something changed
I fell through love too quickly
All endless dirge: who will I be when you found out who I really am?
Just say goodbye to people that had come to see us off
We got drunk, fell in the creek
We made jokes out of everything
Played me the saddest songs
I threw up on your roses
Flew me out for the day
Meaning exists (in) how we relate
Staggering through park ponds, making faces at ourselves
Now I swear you won’t shut up
Dancing ‘round with airplane arms
Back on the street something changed
I fell through love too quickly
All endless dirge: who will I be when you found out who I really am?
Saying goodbye to people that had come to see us…
I thought I would change
I see you away
Our lives are just the shit we did
These are problems that will look ugly and pointless when we’re
Racing through the sky and on and on and on and on
Now I swear you won’t shut up
Gone too far or far enough
Now I don’t want it to ruin
If only for a second
Back on the street something had changed
I fell in love too quickly
Who will I be when you found out who I really am?
Saying goodbye to former selves
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6. |
Emptierheart
03:21
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Pacing in a glass
Valerie slow down
I know what you’re doing and I want a part of
Putting our arms aside
I loved you more than you could
It’s impossible to nurture this
I’m not trying to win
I won’t make up exchanges
Pretty names they can’t learn (know)
And your heart
Rattling cages in the dark
Empty your heart
I’m sorry left in increments, come apart
Pacing in a glass
Lions beneath you aligned in opposites
It’s something you whispered
Our trues selves horrified
At the current state of our lives
Darling without you, I’m an idiot
I’m just you I’m an idiot
I make up exchanges
And your heart
Rattling cages in the dark
Empty your heart
I’m sorry left you increments, come apart
(I won’t care if you don’t)
You’re so good at walking around my mind
I’m cool to burn it all down
And all my life is a capo: I thought I was better but there when I found
Your heart
Rattling cages in my dark
Empty my heart
If this the old us then what have we got?
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Now you don’t want to talk about it
I know how you feel
I am always afraid, rushing through everything
We could run, run, run
Meant to let you go
Didn’t see it then, I didn’t wanna know (uh oh)
You should tell me the punks you know
And where they scattered to
You should tell me I’m losing myAmerican youth
Then we could run, run, run
Spiders can’t slow down
You’ve given me things without meaning how
Then we could run, run, run
I want to be wrong
From my passenger mirror put your make up on
And the fires were beautiful but the fires slow down!
World of things gone rotten
Has been left behind in a sad, former glow
The rules were different then, nobody could imagine me here
Long lost don’t forget man, confidence is all disgusting
Now you don’t want to talk about it
I know how that feels
Giving up sliding into glass walls too concerned
We don’t know, know, know
Anything at all
What a slow defeat into drab adults
Who are not so sure how we came to be dark water swimming pool cracked led into the sea
(Alice, it’s okay, heaven wanna take you so far away
The vulture’s coming back or do they never, ever really leave?)
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8. |
Half An Hour Ago
02:53
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Wreckage of past
Is there always a way (through)?
I’ll wait for you there through the half doors and gates
Derivative names like fake money exchanged
I brace myself
You panned the strings
You handed me whispered fighting
For half an hour I know exactly what I will do
Sometimes I hate how you’re following phase
A contra in time you were digging up graves
When noise from the party is too loud to think
I brace myself
For context cues
Somehow they always cling to you
It’s hard to believe I haven’t known you before now
You said this time it was tough for you
And that I should stop repeating this loop
If what matters is over
Little obliterations happen all the time
You keep adding em up
You keep adding em up and up
I brace myself
For context cues
Somehow they always get to you
It’s hard to believe I don’t know you now
Or half an hour ago
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9. |
An Hour Ago
02:58
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This conversation’s a mess
I don’t see what you meant
I know it’s hard to be
When you come back together
And I’m not affected
Laughing at the edges of our enemies
Well I hope to run in to
Every (single) one I once knew
There…
There..
And you know it’s hard for me
Some closed off part of my head
Reminds me of fighting
On the steps, in dismal lighting
The true nature of things are dying
I hope that it’s too late
And you say it’s lovely
And you say it won’t fall apart
And I’ll stay until it’s acceptable to leave
A partial confession isn’t enough to erase soft burdens
I am not there, I have never been
Until an hour ago
Nothing like inheritance
Then you say it’s lovely
And you say it won’t fall apart
And I’ll stay until it’s acceptable to leave
Riding in strained silence
It permeates for centuries
I follow love into the darkest places
I just found that a partial confession isn’t
Enough to erase I am not there, I have never been
Until an hour ago
Now you know it’s hard for me
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10. |
new recording 75
02:20
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The middle life
I’m waiting in a tower
Caught in the remains of the day
The last decade, a misunderstanding
You sighed
I can’t walk away in darkness hiding
Alluvial out come violins
Love is a poor excuse for madness ending
We tried
All in time
I knew these words
You wrote those lines
I see you at the top of staircase sometimes
All in time
You knew these lines
I spoke those words
We just wanted the medicine and not the cure
See me at the wake
01, 21, 13 away
Post parade mistakes
I’m convincing myself to be okay
With all I’ve done wrong
And
With all that’s gone wrong
Love is a poor excuse for madness ending
We tried
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11. |
2000 Times
03:24
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Between the wheels and the end of road
The second floor said we’re not going home
And from my car you figured out
I was asleep, I’d let you down
I shuffled my feet on red carpet stains
We’re waterfalls filled with unending rain
We’re going round like angels and
We’re dying and we’re holding …
Don’t you see? I’m no longer just breaking
I lie still until the ghosts slide over me
There’s a headless video network that’s putting poison into everything and
Pull us away from hinges
I’m living in guest rooms with you
I gave you petals to toss, you threw em out
And waves were once so far beneath our feet
We can’t afford to go but we can’t stay over
We can’t afford to go but we can’t stay over
Don’t you see? I’m no longer just breaking
I lie still until the ghosts slide over me
I’m sorry I didn’t hold to you tighter then
I’ve wrong been two thousand times now and I don’t understand
Alive in public, dying inside
Forever harmless
You see me as I am
A while, ago
Shambling kindness
I’ve known you too well
Nothing gets blessed when all
Of everything is a curse
We thought we’d be safe if we rearranged
So hot between the panes
Don’t you see? I’m no longer just breaking
I lie still as your ghosts slide over me
I’m sorry I didn’t hold to you tighter then
I’ve wrong been two thousand times now and I don’t understand
Alive in public, dying inside
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I forgive myself
I’m the last to hold on
When we weaponize the past
You were right before long
(Your youth is like a shotgun)
Is it the ones who are gone or the ones who are left?
Now I cant understand
The rest from the regrets
I went inside your head
Cause you told me to calm down
I couldn’t see the ghosts that defend who you are now
Now I suppose heaven is a slipping slope
You hold so tight
When everybody else lets go
Betray me now I’m due for something wrong
Not holding walls in place
Get them down
There are just two places: Back again now and very far away
Trick me now I’m due for something wrong
Not holding walls in place
Get them down
There are just two places: Back again now and very far away
Figuring this out
Sheets tacked in the windows
I can’t read your eyes since you love get closed, get close
Is it the ones who are gone or the ones who are left?
Now I cant understand the rest from the regrets
Not holding walls in place
Get them down
There are just two places: Back again now and very far away
Trick me now I’m due for something wrong
Separating space
The rest from the regrets
I’m listening
The rest from the regrets
I’m still learning
The rest from the regrets
I’m still learning
The rest from the regrets
I’m still learning
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