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01 We Will Turn It Into A Golden Hand
I don’t listen to myself
Because I know how it sounds
Climbing through the rosebushes
You laugh but your face is not laughing
I had to sell my guitar
I held in the smoke too long
Phasing out all best times
We transform into adults slowly
Waving hi from the audience
Saying hi from the audience
Wave goodbye from the audience
Wave goodbye at the audience
I burned out there in the apartment of the sun
So I went east to write some songs in the snow
Saying hi from the audience
There are only so many places left to run after
There are only so many places to go to after all
Before it looks the same
I’m not sure what it means to really come back here again
And I think you had me confused then
For someone that I wasn’t yet
But I could still be but I still could be
But I still could be
If can take all that we have and turn it into a golden hand
All that we have and turn it into a golden hand
All that we have and turn it into a golden hand
All that we have and turn it into a golden hand
Turn all that we have and turn it into a golden hand
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02 Darkness Won’t See The Light
Lost the fight, I don’t care
Can we stay alive this way?
Fuck it’s fine I don’t know
Dead feeling, in my blood slows
Flipping through the memories
Ripped right ones off, but it still feels all wrong
You said if he could see us now
He’d probably laugh while looking down
When you call without meaning
A double life this new feeling
An idea that terrified me
It left me out, it drew me in, then went
I don’t want to be
Enemies for centuries
Sometimes we’re good at convincing ourselves
What helicopter leaves us
Lost the fight, I don’t care
When you call, said ‘I’m here’
World of thorns, evening drive
One day you, won’t be mine
I’ve been struggling to do something for the first time
What shame is not was love so much as devotion
Arc to cross in the glass wilderness
Had my chance
At some point weakness just
Ends up as a part of who I am
I don’t want to be
Enemies for centuries
Sometimes we’re good at convincing ourselves
Our helicopter leaves us
I haven’t tried anything but I’m tired of trying
I remember us stumbling down hills
Convinced of nothing we don’t need to be loved
Darling darling, darkness won’t see
Darkness won’t see the
I thought I had so much left
Darling darling darkness won’t see the light
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The Hardest Parts
02:19
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03 The Hardest Parts
Everything is felt this way: We don’t believe in what we got
I’m only happy when I’m laughing at myself
You’re probably there I’m probably lost
I used to know everything you did
I used to feel like I could to this
I don’t wanna ask too much
Of the hardest parts
Think I’ve got a lot to do now
To make up for this, I know
The hardest parts are yet to come when the hardest parts are done
Utterly lost in the avalanche
Was it us who mistook rain for romance?
You push me around just with a look from your eyes
I think our lives are dotted lines
I used to know everything you did
I used to feel like I could to this
I don’t wanna ask too much
Of the hardest parts
Think I’ve got a lot to do now
To make up for this, I know
The hardest parts are yet to come when the hardest parts are done
I don’t wanna ask too much of the hardest parts
When the hardest parts are yet to come
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An Animals
02:31
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04 An Animals
Suddenly so easy to be myself that I felt
Like I must have been someone else
There are cracks in the panes
There are sharks in the waves
There are scratches in your door
It’s hard to believe that
You said you don’t want what you don’t have
Automatic walkways dragged us like animals
Cliched, hard to believe
Weary of what I don’t need
There isn’t anything I want to be a part of
I just want to get of the way with you
It’s hard to believe that
You said you don’t want what you don’t have
Automatic walkways
When maybe it’s better to just go back
I remember heartbreak
I pretend to have patience as I’m rushing right by
A slice of jail all night
Is it more than just my fault?
Did you say it’s not that hard?
To walk away
Is it more than just my fault?
Did you say it’s not that hard?
To not forget the way
We can barely protect ourselves
I forget my place in those endless nights
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05 What Am I Saying To Myself?
It’s not like we’ll survive this
And you think nothing is worth trying
Things can’t stay this forever in my mind
I see now I was careless
It was fucked up not to care
Can’t you take a day off from the worst night of your life?
As a ghost or a new vision
Of what this good love was supposed to mean
You said you can’t separate your self from your thoughts
What did I decide?
What am I saying to myself?
What have I said?
It’s not like we’ll survive this
I don’t need to know right now
And the wolves can’t stay forever by your side
As a ghost or anew vision
Of what this good love was supposed to mean
No amount of distance
Now could save us if you can’t
What did we decide?
What am I saying to myself?
You had me confused for something that I wasn’t
Now I’m only trying
Faces drawn
I’m gonna look up at myself though this window
Before not falling out
What did we decide?
What am I saying to myself?
You had me confused for something that I wasn’t
What am I saying to myself?
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6. |
Fingernails
03:17
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06 Fingernails
Back then we did a lot of bad things
We knew it all
Kissed strays conquered desolate place
Went through it all
You can’t grow up more than once, right?
Tell me agood lie repeating
In a palace where nothing dies
Take my place so it’s never-ending
Regrets grow back like fingernails
Take my place so it’s never-ending
Regrets grow back like fingernails
We can see cleaner now
Convinced of nothing
Now that the smoke has settled
Embarrassment
I can see us burning out strange as ever
You can’t grow up more than once
If you want to never come over
You could always just stay where you are
Take my place so it’s never-ending
Regrets grow back like fingernails
Take my place so it’s never-ending
Regrets grow back like fingernails
Oh, oh, oh, oh
We can see cleaner
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Convinced of nothing
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Burning on a quiet dream
It breaks me apart
If there’s such a thing
I couldn’t raise my eyes to my regret
I could see there was a difference
Let grow what will
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7. |
Got You
03:33
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07 Got You
The last thought might not be true
I swam through the fog for years thinking
All ends ephemeral
Ether way they’ve got you talking to
Convinced we were both wrong and entertaining delusions of
Now we didn’t see what happened
But we couldn’t see what happened
Now we didn’t see what
I forget it’s just medicine
You get lost trying to lose everything
No rot to youth when I got you
I got you
You start over, you said might as well
We were all guilty until we had forgotten who
Have we become one with them yet?
Have you met yourself in the streets?
Where good ideas are a waste
Bet you didn’t see what happened
Bet you didn’t see what happened
I forget it’s just medicine
And you get lost trying to lose something
No rot to youth when I got you too
I typed for days trying to burn it loose
Psychic wounds, I got you
And sometimes that’s your wild eyes just outside sorrows of this life
I’m half right and I’m half wrong
You knew ghosts, so this is not a loss
Why the fuck are we even talking about this?
It’s all so godamn obvious
Forever holding until nothing’s harmless
Now nothing’s harmless
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8. |
Out of Time
02:52
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08 Out Of Time
Say what you wanted before all a lie
I had it lined up, it slipped under mine
We barely made it out and sometimes I’m
Not sure if we did entirely, or entirely did
You can’t make it here and neither can I
The smallest thing kills me
I don’t know why
Driving in circles with a million things in between
I wanted to know
But we’re out of time
Can’t say what you thought
Cause we’re out of time
Now it seems like we’re only making things harder
I play the tape and watch myself fall apart
I want to be honest, I want to be honest
Say what you want
Then you’re out of time
I wanted to know but we’re out of time
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Empire Lines
02:42
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09 Empire Lines
We sat on the bed
Watching airplane lights flicker inside the sky
How we fight without fighting
I am used to these moments but they are not
Supposed to happen anymore
But what can we do?
If this was just an ending
When we keep things simple no one
Can tell we don’t belong
Empire lines
What reason to accept things as they are
Inside our separate costumes
Everything was the same
If you are reckless
And if time’s just waiting to pounce
What are we going to do now?
I remember those nights when
If I do harm than anyone could
But I’m not looking for a way out are you?
I remember those nights when
If I do harm than anyone could
But I’m not looking for a way out are you?
I’m not looking for a way out are you?
Then it was just an ending
We happened to get over it
Where love is just not one lonely outcome
If this was just an ending
When we keep things simple
No one can tell we don’t belong
Empire lines
Don’t tell we don’t belong, empire lines
Don’t tell we don’t belong, empire lines
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Chores
03:20
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10 Chores
Turned the carpet dark
A second of blood when water runs out
So your thoughts lined up
You could give in it would still go on
I want to be balanced
I want to be less with the waves on down
Caught in my head everything stops
What haven’t I done wrong?
Now if we ever get back
Looking lost already
That’s when you figured me out
And I couldn’t tell anymore
Bored, still couldn’t care less
You didn’t want love ruining your mind
Pitched at trials what life waits to be played?
Asking too much
Paraphrased at deep ends
Dying so slow
What are we trying to get?
Wild dirt rose, like anarchist a romantic in disguise
Now if we ever get back
Looking lost already
I stand up, I hit my head
I’m missing all my friends
They’re here
Now if we ever get back
Looking lost already
Back when I knew you
Heaven’s a chore for
Crying on wet fields
Who cares about anything from so far away?
I still loved you from far away, I still love you
Not like we’ll ever get back
Looking lost already
Slipped on our own blood
I’m not aiming that way, way, way
Take them all!
Now if we ever get back
Looking lost already
These maps lead us nowhere
I’m turning away from the the hangman I once knew
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11. |
Caught In Lights
03:50
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11 Caught in Lights
I’m trying to get away from this by lying to myself
In cafes with paintings of famous men who are all dead now
The only things I had to say: “The fountains empty out” or
“I wish I had a better sense of who am I without you around”
Places apart
As if to say- what took so long
Places apart, on and on
There’s nothing we can say
We’re caught in lights
All caught in lights
A century that we’ve to romanticize
Frozen in time, caught in lights
Withhold the fine lines, broken teeth
Traffic light to traffic light
Everything is something else, like the dead chapels of your eyes
Let it be true for some of us:
“The fountains empty out” or
“I wish I had a lot to say about myself with you around”
I gave up when you did but I will love you til the end
I’m caught in lights with you
I’m caught in lights with you
But I still want to try
I still want to try
With you
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Aaron Schroeder San Francisco, California
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