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Big Surprise
02:56
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01 Big Surprise
Feels like it must be the way
You don’t respond to me right away
Then a week or two slips by
You’re said you’re sorry you were MIA
I’m fresh out of white flags
We’ll stay and draw circles around ourselves
Wild West shit
We don’t talk about the same things
Even when we’re both talking about the same things
I’ve written too much about us
Feels like this must be the place
No god kicking in around my veins
You looked best when you’re looking through
You said nothing hurts like the sad truth
I’m fresh out of white flags
We’ll stay and draw a circle around ourselves
Wild West shit
We don’t talk about the same things
Even when we’re both talking about the same things
I’ve written too much
Big surprise: we pushed the crystal doors aside
I watched come crash through mine
Maybe we stop bullshitting ourselves
I’m not who I thought I was five minutes ago
Burning stolen smokes
I have no guilt or shame yet
Big surprise: we pushed the crystal doors aside
I hope you come crash through mine
Thinking we should want more than this
Big surprise: I can tell you think you recognize
I’m not who I thought I was back then
We keep restarting
You look up and see every light five minutes ago
Burning stolen smokes
I have no guilt and no shame
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02 No Matter of Life or Death
I couldn’t get away
I wanted your regrets
Is it hard to believe what had changed?
When I’m the only one
Feeling everything wrong (I guess)
It’s no matter of life or death
Like silent violence I still loved a good excuse
Feel like nothing comes from nothing’s end
Going blind in the dark
I didn’t write a song
I wrote you an album
It was all I had left
Pedals pulled and collapsed
It was all I had left, I knew it was wrong
It was all I had left
It was all that was left
When you called and you said that you don’t wanna know
I don’t need to go back
I’ve slipped through a new
I don’t need to go back
I’ll sleep through a new half truth
No matter of life or death
I don’t wanna talk to you
Like adults do, it’s weird
For fucks same I’m sure we’ve done some good
But now everything is wrong
Horrible, shamed and lost
Without the right context to explain
When it’s all that is left
Not some terrible end
That we’re running from
It was all that was left
It was all that was left
When you called and you said that you don’t wanna know
It was all I had left
Pedals pulled and collapsed
It was all I had left, iI knew it was wrong
I don’t need to go back
I’ve slipped through anew
I don’t need to go back
I’ll sleep through a new half truth
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3. |
Gray Hoodie
02:26
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03 Grey Hoodie
When you take it all back when
What if we had never meant?
I could only hate you too
Just some no one from high school
You said nothing I don’t know
You said nothing I don’t know
When the blood is all dried up
The disintegration outpaced us, it’s sad
Now:
It’s always better when there are less
New versions to destroy ourselves
There’s no real work
That would pay so much
To make so little
So you wait for
So you wait for
So you wait for
So you wait for
So you wait for
So you look for
Who you were
There’s no place for
There’s no place for
There’s no place for
This new you
So you wait for
So you wait for
So you wait for
Who you were
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4. |
Half Awake
03:04
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04 Half Awake
Thieves in the back of my head are never enough
It’s awkward to wait for love, I guess
No one has it in for me
Walk into bloodless walls
Once saw a window to escape through
Thieves in the back of my head
Feet tied to skates and fainting
A glass case to show off your shame
A flyer won’t tell them your name
I’m half awake
Practicing diving or waiting in the pool
Half awake
Something to take apart
I can’t put back
Every savage night a repeat of savage days
Where I’m half awake
I’m half awake
Thieves in the back of my head were never away
I’m throwing what’s left into a castle flaming out
I don’t know what to say
I’m counting on you to tell me now
I don’t know what to save
No one has it in for me
Horoscope predictions wronged
Surrounded by roses and phone calls I tried to ruin myself
Half awake
Something to take apart
I can’t put back
Half awake
We no longer see the same world at all
Half awake
Practicing diving or waiting in the pool
Half awake
Inside a palace run by evil gremlins
Savage night just a repeat of our savage days
Where I’m half awake
I’m half awake
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5. |
Spend
02:58
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05 Spend
Spent my days in a rut
Spend my time not looking up
Two weeks of wavering with covers torn
Nothing good ever comes from leaving suddenly
I’m lost in my mind, tombs we’re in
I might be wrong
Ooh, ooh
Then you said if you stayed it would just
Make things worse when you had to go
I don’t know anymore
Wreckage remembered
What could be worse than slow destruction?
One day it will be all mine
I wanted to see what it was like to think it was fine
To come apart and be alright
I wanted to see what it was like to
Think it was cool that we gave up and be fine
No fucked up genius could take our places
It wasn’t anything, it felt like something
It wasn’t anything, it felt like something
Spend my time not looking up
Spent my days in a rut
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6. |
Sorted Out
03:05
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06 Sorted Out
You used to wonder where we’d end up
Always getting out of trouble
What could be worse than not needing anyone?
I’m older and I’ve given it up
We lost it ages ago
How did it end up pulling us down here again?
Now I don’t wanna do it alone
And when we leave it will be like we were never here
Caught in the same rain
I’m never around I’m always there
We lost faith ages ago
So how did it end up pulling us down?
Oh, We’re always slipping up
I’m not really like this
I guess I’ve fucked up
I don’t know what you thought
I don’t know what you were thinking
I don’t know what you thought
Sorted out, is our last death the easiest?
Sorted out, is our last death the easiest?
We thought we could outrun anything
Not chasing after us after all
I used to wonder where we’d end up
I’ll never know all the angels
And the delay, here we’ve been
Sorted out, is our last death the easiest?
Sorted out, is our last death the easiest?
We thought we could outrun anything
Not chasing after us after all
Now I don’t wanna do it alone
And when we leave it will be like we were never here
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07 (Don’t Go Looking For) What you Don’t wanna find
Sharpen teeth: Televisions on apartment lawns
Fighting with all my friends
You and your crew of crusaders
You take yourselves oh so seriously
Tied in knots
Every party eight stars in my hands
Keeping up with the dead
Teenage years slither off
I’ll tell you how it feels if I find that feeling again
What viciousness drifts away
Like helicopter blades rip up the smoke
It cracked the case, I fell gradually
Former collapse, not exclude to age
Final, in fact, we used to know the way
Have you got your camera on?
Don’t look for what you don’t wanna find
Tried to go where it starts
The feelings in our heads
You can turn it on us
I got something tattooed
I used to be afraid of anything that came to me too easy
It has become an obsession
I’ll feel the loss you felt
It has become an obsession
War stories in guest rooms
Innocence drifts away
Like helicopter blades rip up the smoke
We cracked the case
I fell gradually
Former collapse, not excluded to age
Final, in fact, we used to know the way
Have you got your camera on?
Have you got your camera?
Former collapse, not excluded to age
Final, in fact, we used to know the way
Have you got your camera on?
Don’t look for what you don’t wanna find, ugh
What you don’t wanna find
What you don’t wanna find
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08 The Same Rebellion & Resignations
The first things
That devour me endlessly
It’s strange they occupy you too
Brought on by
Lingering laments
This rotten world we leave behind for love
To rush then through our youth
May flowers always fall down
Over us
Over us
Over us
Fragment dust, place we run
You took me to
The same rebellion and resignation
Fairness knows
You’ve changed some things about yourself
I’ve changed some things about me too
Laying there
Ashing cigarettes in the rain
In rooms you’ve got to leave to keep
Innocent even if our
Future was already wasted
Held a match
I want to be what you want me to
Please tell me so
Over us
Over us
Over us
Fragment dust
Place we run
You took me to
The same rebellion and resignations
The same rebellion and resignations
The same rebellion and resignations
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9. |
Learn to Walk Away
04:13
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09 Learn To Walk Away
I thought I had so much to say
But when I tried to write it down
Another curse, it all just hurt
The truth is I never made plans to stay
I guess I am not as sure as you ever were
A throbbing pink bonfire as stuck inside of my skull
Telling ghost stories
In afterlife guest rooms
I learned to walk away, I learn to walk away
We don’t want pain to take too long
Our heroes have all fallen apart
And now we’re old, it’s hard to say
You can’t let destruction ruin your life that way
Have I been adrift for years?
Mending only fences
Have I been adrift for years?
Mending only fences
I’ll learn to walk away, I’ll learn to walk away
Oh, oh, oh
Before our long agos
Before our on our owns
Before what happens next
Before your car got towed
Before not coming back
Before the slow exits
Before you came to bed
Before the bad dream ends
Before the lightning hits
Before collapsing rain
I had a hard time then thinking of ways to say
How much I needed you, how much I still need you
How much I still need you, how much I still need you
I can’t learn to walk away
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10. |
Mixed
01:31
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10 Mixed
The warning signs
Like godamn danger
When we’re around played us as strangers
I crushed my hand it came to life
And you think this is too weird
Loosen your grip on who you are now
These spiderwebs held our true selves in
I wanna throw my soul into a fire
I don’t wanna get my life
Mixed up with the wrong types
I don’t wanna get my life
Mixed up with the wrong types
I don’t wanna get my life
Mixed up with the wrong lives
You don’t wanna get your life
Mixed up with the wrong types
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11. |
FWUS
04:13
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11 FWUS
They forget what you wanted
Fending off a sigh but I wasn’t disgusted with uncommon lives
To come ask what you wanted
Stranded in space was it foolish to follow
Now I don’t know
A child hasn’t caught up w dull future hells
Wine goes to your head
Craters stagnant water
There wasn’t room for your ideas,
You forget what being poor is about
A hallway explored all you have to do is just to step out
You’ve lost me
You’ve lost me
You’ve lost me
Your fortune was beneath you
The same only in memories
Your fortune was beneath you
The same only in memory
Your fortune was beneath you
The same only in memory
We all have a way of staying alive
We all have a way of staying alive
We all have a way of staying alive
We all have a way of staying alive
We all have a way of staying alive
For what it’s worth, I’m not gonna tear this apart
For what it’s worth, I hoped this would last forever
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